I’M LISTENING, AND READING. AND, FOR ME, THE ACT OF ACCEPTANCE OF THINGS WE DO NOT APPRECIATE, IS TOO ACCEPT THE FACT WE CAN NOT BE HAPPY. THINGS ARE NOT BLACK AND WHITE. IF THEY WERE, I COULD SPEAK MUCH MORE CLEARLY. MAYBE IT IS I WHOM SHOULD STEP BACK, FROM EVERYONE ELSE, AS IT WERE BEFORE. WHEN I TEMPT MYSELF INTO SOCIAL INTERACTION, I BREAK MYSELF AND THOSE AROUND ME. FOR SOMEONE WHO SEEKS COMPLEXITY, THIS IS A SIMPLE SOLUTION. ISOLATION. SAD, BUT EFFECTIVE. I LOSE, AND EVERYONE WINS. NOW WE KNOW WHY I TEND TO NOT SPEAK UP, I HAVE A DAMAGING TONGUE, AND AN EVEN MORE DAMAGING MENTAL THOUGHT PROCESS.