I’M IN A BLENDER OF EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW. IN ONLY A FEW DEEP BREATHS I CAN BE ANGERED, SCARED, ENLIGHTENED, JEALOUS, PITIFUL, ANXIOUS… A CONSTANT AMALGAMATION OF THOUGHT AND FEELING. HOW DO YOU LET THE THINGS YOU LOVE LEAVE? DO YOU STAND AND FIGHT? UGH… SO TIRED. 3AM BEDTIME ISN’T TOO SMART. AND IT’S GOING TO BE A LONG WEEK… SIS IS IN TOWN TOMORROW NIGHT. HIT UP SOME FUN PLACE FOR DINNER. HAVE TO LOVE THE WATCHFUL EYES OF INTEREST, BUT NO INTEREST. WHO ARE YOU KIDDING? YOU KNOW.

ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS… ? CHRIST. 2007 IS SO FUCKING WEIRD. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON THESE DAYS?

FORLORN.

IT’S GOING TO BE TOUGH… AND TOUGH LOVE. I’M DENYING THE FINALITY OF IT ALL. MAYBE GOOD, MAYBE BAD. IT’S HARD. WHERE DO YOU PUT YOURSELF? HOW DO YOU ACT? DO YOU CHANGE? DO YOU BUILD A HIGHER WALL? DO YOU LEAVE THE GATE OPEN? I GUESS BE PATIENT, BUT, HOW LONG DO YOU LET SOMEONE TEST IT? IF YOU ASKED THE SAME OF THEM, WOULD THEY DO SO? TRUTH IN RINGTONES… PHOTOS REMAIN, LINGERING SCENTS, CONSTANT REMINDERS. DAY TO DAY FOR NOW. LOVE IS STRONG.

… ALWAYS DOUBTING.