YOU’RE PROBABLY AN ADULT WHEN YOU MAKE AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE A GENERAL PRACTITIONER, DENTAL IMPLANT SPECIALIST, AND PSYCHIATRIST IN THE SAME DAY. OH WELL. AT LEAST I’M TRYING TO ‘TAKE CARE OF MYSELF’. KATE WAS IN TOWN MONDAY AND TUESDAY NIGHT. IT WAS FUN. HERE’S A PHOTO OF THE TWO OF US AT SEPHORIA. I SWEAR I ‘END UP IN HERE’ ABOUT EVERY 3 WEEKS OR SO!

SUCH A LONELY DAY – AND IT’S MINE – THE MOST LONELIEST DAY OF MY LIFE – SUCH A LONELY DAY – SHOULD BE BANNED – IT’S A DAY THAT I CAN’T STAND – THE MOST LONELIEST DAY OF MY LIFE – THE MOST LONELIEST DAY OF MY LIFE – SUCH A LONELY DAY – SHOULDN’T EXIST – IT’S A DAY THAT I’LL NEVER MISS – SUCH A LONELY DAY – AND IT’S MINE – THE MOST LONELIEST DAY OF MY LIFE – AND IF YOU GO, I WANNA GO WITH YOU – AND IF YOU DIE, I WANNA DIE WITH YOU – TAKE YOUR HAND AND WALK AWAY – THE MOST LONELIEST DAY OF MY LIFE – SUCH A LONELY DAY – AND IT’S MINE – IT’S A DAY THAT I’M GLAD I SURVIVED

WHEN IS ENOUGH, ENOUGH? WHAT DO I DO?

DAYS SUCH AS THIS ARE NOT THE ONES I ENJOY BEING ALONE DOING NOTHING. I’VE GOT TO MAKE IT MORE CLEAR TO BE PEOPLE WHEN I THINK THEY’RE PUSHING ME AROUND OR WALKING OVER ME. IT’S NOT COOL. I HAVE TO ASK MYSELF, IS THIS WORTH IT? DO I NEED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THIS PERSON THAT BADLY? NOT SURE. FEELS LIKE I’M LOW IN THE FRIEND DEPARTMENT, OR AT LEAST PEOPLE WHO ARE WILLING TO CALL UP AND HANG OUT. GRANTED, IT’S MY AGE, AND SLOW PROGRESSION OF MY OWN LIFE, BUT, IT’S STILL ANNOYING AND DEPRESSING. I TRY NOT LET IT GET TO ME TOO MUCH, JUST SOME DOES, IT’S A BIT MUCH. BUT, IT’S THE SAME STUFF PEOPLE DEAL WITH, I THINK. IT’S HARD GETTING HELP ON YOUR OWN.

IT WAS A SWEET WEEKEND. HAPPY FATHER’S DAY DAD. IT WAS ALSO A BITTER SWEET WEEKEND WITH THE NEWS OF MY COUSIN. TOO BAD. TOO YOUNG.