April 30th, 2005 - 6:13 pm
04-30-2005 6:13 pm
THE HUM OF NASCAR MAKES ME SLEEPY… AND THE DARK CLOUDY RAINY DAYS MAKE IT HARD TO STAY AWAKE.
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April 29th, 2005 - 2:38 pm
04-29-2005 2:38 pm
http://online.wsj.com/article_email/0,,SB111473379074820285-IRjgoNilaB4nJ2ubX2Ib66Am5,00.html
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April 27th, 2005 - 11:59 am
04-27-2005 11:59 am
FOR THOSE WHO COULDN’T ATTEND THE BOUT LAST FRIDAY – http://www.ninarich.net/derbygame2
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April 25th, 2005 - 12:18 pm
04-25-2005 12:18 pm
I’M SO CONFUSED. I CAN’T SEEL THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL IN THIS JOURNEY… OR SEARCH… OR WHATEVER IT IS. I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S REAL AND WHAT’S NOT, AND WHICH WAY I’M GOING. IT’S HARD TO INTERPRET SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T KNOW WHAT THEY WANT. I’M NOT SURE HOW I’M EVEN MAKING MY OWN DECISIONS THESE DAYS… IT’S NOT CLEAR, TO ANYONE. AND I DON’T HAVE AN ANSWERS, JUST QUESTIONS. IF I THREW THIS ALL BACK IN HER FACE, I WONDER WHAT SHE WOULD SAY… IF ANYTHING. YET, I STILL THINK THERE IS SOME FORWARD PROGRESSION, AND I JUST NEED TO BE PATIENT.
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April 23rd, 2005 - 4:57 am
04-23-2005 4:57 am
I FEEL SO ALONE SOME DAYS. EVEN WHEN I HAVE PEOPLE AROUND ME. I DON’T KNOW WHY. IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME? OR IS IT THEM? I CAN’T SEEM TO CONNECT WITH ANYONE THESE DAYS, EXCEPT FOR PEOPLE I ALREADY KNOW. IT’S HARD. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A SOUL WHICH NEEDS TO SURVIVE ON ITS OWN, BUT I’M NOT COMFORTABLE WITH IT.
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April 20th, 2005 - 12:59 am
04-20-2005 12:59 am
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M DOING. AND I ALWAYS FIND MY SELF DOWN THIS ROAD WHEN IT COMES TO MY SOCIAL LIFE. EVEN WHEN I’M NOT LOOKING FOR ANYONE TO FILL THE VOID, I FIND SOMEONE WHO COULD AND IT’S JUST GOING TO LEAD TO MORE CRAP DOWN THE ROAD. NO WONDER I ENJOY WORKING SO MUCH, I CAN FORGET ABOUT ALL THIS OTHER SHIT. IT’S PRETTY CLEAR THIS ISN’T GOING TO HAPPEN, AND IT’S FAIRLY SCREWED. BUT, MOST OF IT WAS WAS MENTAL FOR ME, WHICH IS HARDER TO DEAL WITH, BECAUSE SHE DOESN’T EVEN SEEM TO REALIZE IT’S HER AND OUR SITUATION MAKING MISTER POOPIE PANTS. IT’S THE BASIC CONFLICTS AND SUCH WHICH I’M NOT USED TO… I MEAN, HER SMELL IS STILL IN MY BED FROM THIS WEEKEND, WHICH IS JUST HARD TO GET PAST. IT’S LIKE HAVING A GIRLFRIEND YOU CAN’T EXPRESS ANY OF YOUR EMOTIONS WITH. IT SUCKS. WHAT’S ADDITIONAL FRUSTRATING WAS I REALLY WASN’T LOOKING… AND THIS CAME ABOUT… AND IN THE END, IT WAS NOTHING. IT JUST FURTHER MAKES IT DIFFICULT FOR ME TO SELF CONFIDENCE ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS AND THE MOTIVATION TO EVEN TRY AND HAVE ONE. I JUST HOPE SHE GETS WHAT SHE REALLY WANTS, AND SHE’S HAPPY IN THE END. AND CLEARLY, I WON’T BE.
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