OH MY. I CAN’T BELIEVE LUNCH TOOK NEARLY 3 HOURS. WAS IT THAT GOOD? NO. BEEN A QUIET DAY. EXCEPT FOR WHEN ISAAC FREAKED OUT AND STARTED RUNNING AROUND THE HOUSE LIKE A MAD MAN. GOOD JOB DUDE.

REFLECTION PERIOD. DECOMPRESSION. DEPRESSION PERIOD. SERENITY SOUGHT. ALONE. FICTION? OPAQUE TURMOIL MANIFESTED FROM ASSUMPTIOUS CONDITIONS. A VAGUE TONGUE. THE MISSING ANSWER. THE MISSING CONDITION. AN UNEXPLAINABLE SITUATION CAUSED FROM BEING. KNOWLINGLY SELF TORTUREOUS. NO EXCUSES. MISPLACED ACCEPTANCE. SORROW. CONSEQUENCES OF CONTENTNESS. INDIVIDUAL DAMNATION. OR, JUST PLAIN IDIOCY.

I’M LISTENING, AND READING. AND, FOR ME, THE ACT OF ACCEPTANCE OF THINGS WE DO NOT APPRECIATE, IS TOO ACCEPT THE FACT WE CAN NOT BE HAPPY. THINGS ARE NOT BLACK AND WHITE. IF THEY WERE, I COULD SPEAK MUCH MORE CLEARLY. MAYBE IT IS I WHOM SHOULD STEP BACK, FROM EVERYONE ELSE, AS IT WERE BEFORE. WHEN I TEMPT MYSELF INTO SOCIAL INTERACTION, I BREAK MYSELF AND THOSE AROUND ME. FOR SOMEONE WHO SEEKS COMPLEXITY, THIS IS A SIMPLE SOLUTION. ISOLATION. SAD, BUT EFFECTIVE. I LOSE, AND EVERYONE WINS. NOW WE KNOW WHY I TEND TO NOT SPEAK UP, I HAVE A DAMAGING TONGUE, AND AN EVEN MORE DAMAGING MENTAL THOUGHT PROCESS.

OH, ANNA, GET WELL SOON DEAR. WE ALL WANT YOU TO BE HEALTHY, AND HAPPY. AND I GOT SOME PHOTOS FROM TODAY, SO YOU CAN LOOK AT MY SILLY MUG! KREG, STOP GIVING ME CRAP ‘BOUT YOUR SISTER, AND SARAH IS THE BEST ‘LOVA’ ANYONE CAN HAVE, HAHA! KATE IS ALREADY LOSING HER ‘R’S FROM DRINKING TOO MUCH, SHE CALLED KREG ‘KEG’ LAST NIGHT. BEAUTIFUL.

MERRY CHRISTMAS… OK, IT’S A DAY LATE, SORRY, IT WAS A LONG EVENING AT THE HOLT HOUSEHOLD AND I WAS BIT ‘DROWSY’ WHEN I GOT HOME THIS MORNING. AT LEAST I KICKED SOME ROYAL BUTT AT NASCAR MONOPOLY! DID A LITTLE RIDIN’ TODAY AT SUNDAY RIVER. CONDITIONS WERE NOT AS GOOD AS EXPECTED, BUT, AT LEAST WE HAD SOME FUN, AND I GOT SOME PRETTY DECENT SHOTS. CHRISTMAS WAS TIGHT… GOT SOME RAD GEAR FOR MYSELF AND THE HOUSE. ALWAYS NICE. GOING PLAY IT LOW KEY TODAY, ESPECIALLY AFTER LAST NIGHTS FESTIVITIES. SO FAR THE TRIP TO THE NORTH, HAS BEEN A GOOD ONE.